:: drOp it LikE itS hOt ::

For the "confused" one

2005-09-29T08:47:00.000-07:00

For the "confused" one
Once again he broke my heart.. and once again he spoke nothing. I get the clue now. I've always known anyway. Im just so stupid for thinking he was different. And you know who you are you FUCKING ASSHOLE! I came across this email from my gay friend that was entitled: "Sex and the city quotable must reads"
1. Don't fall for the "I'm confused role". Remove yourself from the
situation to let him figure things out (but don't wait for him, move on).
2. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
3. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
4. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's character, leave him alone.
5. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
6. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
7. Don't force an attraction.
8. Slower is better.
9. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
10. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve, then heck no you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
11. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don't let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order.
12. Don't settle.
13. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
14. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship, take that as
a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?
15. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
16. Honorable men take care of their business and aren't involved in a whole lot of mess.
17. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
18. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you: he doesn't want you.
19. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would hetreat you any differently?
20. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.
20. Always put yourself and your happiness first.
21. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothersyou, speak up.
23. If he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested.
24. Be honest and upfront.
25. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.
27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just mom).
28. There's more than physical abuse, there's emotional and mental
abuse. If he causes any of them...flee.
29. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.
30. Don't let him place rules on you that he is not willing to follow himself --> double-standard.
31. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.
32. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
33. Demand respect and if he can't give it, he can't have you!
34. Don't compete with other women, but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.
35. If you think he is cheating, he probably is. Confront him right away and if you FEEL he's lying, let him go.
36. Actions speak louder than words.
37. Never let a man define who you are.
38. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that.
39. Never borrow someone else's man.
40. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
41. Just because he says he loves you, doesn't mean that he won't hurt you and it doesn't mean that you are meant to be with him.
42. To use painful hard-won wisdom -- 'get it right' the next time.
43. Know that you deserve to be the number one person in the life of the #1 person in your life.
44. Love is a verb.
45. Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying to make someone
unavailable-available, someone ungiving-giving, and
someoneunloving-loving.
46. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
47. All men are NOT dogs.
48. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a
two way street.
49. If you don't love yourself...you can't love anyone else.
50. Never date a guy who wears colored contact
lenses.

mOviE LiNeS

2005-06-12T09:03:00.000-07:00

::moVie LiNes::

> Josie Geller: Sometime you'll kiss someone and know that's the person> you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life.
> ----NEVER BEEN KISSED
>> The only wrong thing would be to deny what your heart truly feels.> ---THE MASK OF ZORRO
>> You will see a lot of things, but they will mean nothing to you if you> lose sight of the one you love.> ---AT FIRST SIGHT
>> If you love someone you say it...you say it right then, out loud...or the
> moment just...passes you by.> ---MY BEST FRIEND'S WEDDING
>> I would rather have had
> One breath of her hair,
> One kiss from her mouth,
> One touch of her hand,
> Than an eternity without it...>
---CITY OF ANGELS
>> You will be doing anything
> For the one you love...> Except love them again.
> ---FAITHFUL
>> Fate exists but it can only take you so far, Because once you're there> It's up to you to make it happen.> ---CAN'T HARDLY WAIT
>> When you've found that person you want to spend the rest of ur life with,> you want the rest of ur life to begin right away."> ---When Harry Met Sally
>> "Sometimes when you hold out for everything, you walk away with nothing."> ---Ally McBeal
>> I hate the way you talk to me And the way you cut your hair.
> I hate the way you drive my car.
> I hate it when you stare.
> I hate your big dumb combat boots
> And the way you read my mind.
> I hate you so much it makes me sick --> It even makes me rhyme.
> I hate the way you're always right.
> I hate it when you lie.
> I hate it when you make me laugh --> Even worse when you make me cry.
> I hate it that you're not around
> And the fact that you didn't call.
> But mostly I hate the way> I don't hate you --> Not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all.> ---Kat Startford (10 Things I Hate About You)

>>> "if two people are meant for each other, it doesnt mean that they are> meant for each other NOW."> ---pacey whitter "DAWSON'S CREEK"

>>> Lois: You know, if somebody had asked me three days ago who the one person
> in the world I admired most was, I'd have said you. But, without really
> knowing what that meant. Without understanding that the hardest thingabout
> being you is all the things you can't do. All the cries for help that you> can't answer, and how that quietly tears you apart. But it never stops
> you. And after living a little of that myself, I realized
> something...something I never thought was possible.
> Clark: What?> Lois: I love you more. More than I ever have and more than I ever thought> I could love anyone, and so, I wanna ask ... Will you marry me?> ---LOIS AND CLARK

>> I know it's a cornball thing, but love is passion,obsession, someone you
> can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to
> end up with? I say fall head over heels. Find someone you love like crazy
> and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget
> your head and listen to your heart... Run the risk, if you get hurt,
> you'll come back. Because the truth is, there is no sense living your life
> without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love -- well, you
> haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't> tried, you haven't lived... Stay open. Who knows? Lightning could strike.> ---MEET JOE BLACK
>> Man: "Will you love me for the rest of my life?"
> Woman: "I will love you for the rest of mine."> ---PHENOMENON
>> I guarantee it won't be easy I guarantee that at one point or another One
> of us is going to want to leave. But I also guarantee that If I don't ask
> you to be mine I am going to regret it For the rest of my life Because I
> know in my heart You are the only one for me.> ---RUNAWAY BRIDE
>> Dear Catherine,> I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in so long. I feel I've been lost. No
> bearings, no compass. I kept crashing into things, a little crazy I guess.
> I've never been lost before. You were my true north. I could always steer
> for home when you were my home. Forgive me for being so angry when you
> left. I still think some mistake's been made and I'm waiting for God to
> take it back. But I'm doing better now. The work helps me. Most of all,
> you help me. You came into my dream last night with that
> smile of yours that always held me like a lover, rocked me like a child.
> All I remember from the dream is a feeling of peace. I woke up with that
> feeling and tried to keep it alive as long as I could. I'm writing to tell
> you that I'm on a journey toward that peace. And to tell you I'm sorry
> about so many things. I'm sorry I didn't take better care of you so that
> you never spent one minute being cold or
> scared or sick. I'm sorry I didn't try harder to find the words to tell
> you
> what I was feeling. I'm sorry I never fixed the screen door. I fixed it
> now.
> I'm sorry I ever fought with you. I'm sorry I didn't apologize more. I Was
> too proud. I'm sorry I didn't bring you more compliments on everything you
> wore and every way you fixed your hair. I'm sorry I didn't hold on to you> with so much strength that even God couldn't pull you away.> All my love. G.> ---MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE
>> "The only feeling of real loss is when you love someone, more than you> love yourself."> ---GOOD WILL HUNTING
>> "I love that you get cold when its 71 degrees out. I love that it takes
> you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little
> crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like i'm nuts. I love that
> after i spend a day with you, i can still smell your perfume on my
> clothes. and i love that you are the last person i want to talk to before
> i go to sleep at night. and it's not because i'm lonely, and it's not
> because it's new Year's eve. i came here tonight because when you realize
> you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest
> of your life to start as soon as possible."> ---WHEN HARRY MET SALLY
>> When you love someone,
> And you love them with your heart,
> It never disappears when you're apart.
> When you love someone> And you've done all you can do,
> You set them free.
> And if that love was true,> When you love someone
> It will all come back to you> ---FORGET PARIS
>> You cannot find true love where it does not truly exist. And you cannot
> hide it here it truly does.> ---KISSING A FOOL
>> I created my very own first breakup rule: Destroy all pictures where he
> looks sexy and you look happy.
> Breakup rule No. 2: Until
> emotionally stabilized, enter no stores.
> Breakup rule No. 3: Never stop thinking
> about him, even for a moment. because that's the moment he'll appear.
> And finally, the most important breakup rule: No matter who broke your
> heart or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without
> your friends.> ---Carrie, from the sitcom SEX AND THE CITY
>> " i miss you so much it hurts"> ---SLEEPLESS IN SEATTLE
>> "Half my days i cannot bear not to touch you, the rest of the time i feel
> it doesn't matter if i ever see you again. It isn't the mortality, it is> how much you can bear....."
> ---THE ENGLISH PATIENT
>> Do you believe in love? I bet you don't, you're probably too sensible for
> that. Have you ever seen someone and you know that if only that person
> really know you, they'd dump the perfect model they were with and realize
> that you are the one they want to grow old with? Have you ever fallen in
> love with someone you've never talked to? Have you ever been so alone you
> spent the night confusing a guy in a coma?> ---WHILE YOU WERE SLEEPING
>> "anything less than mad, passionate, extraordinary love is a waste of your
> time. there are too many mediocre things in life to deal with and love> shouldn't be one of them."> ---A DREAM FOR AN INSOMNIAC
>> "i'm here to love you, to hold you in my arms and to protect you. i'm here
> to learn from you and to receive your love in return. i'm here coz there's
> no other place to be."> ---MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE
>> "Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw, of what I did,of
> who I am. And most of all, I'm scared of walking out of this room and
> never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you."> ---DIRTY DANCING
>> "When you kiss someone, everything around you becomes hazy... and the only
> thing in focus is you and this person... And you realize that this person
> is the only person you should be kissing for the rest of your life... And
> for one moment, you get, this amazing gift... And you wanna laugh and you
> wanna cry... Cuz you feel so lucky that you've found it and so scared that
> it'll go away all at the same time..."> ---NEVER BEEN KISSED
>> "It's funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love while
> at the back of our minds we know that the person we trully love will
> always be an exception"> ---Ally McBea
l>> "how can you assume to be friends with someone when all you think about
> when you look at him is how much more you really want?"> -joey, DAWSON'S CREEK
>> if two people love each other, but just cant seem to put things together,
> when would that point be.. when one would say enough is enough? NEVER.> ---THE MEXICAN
>> "So this is love...so this is what makes life divine. I'm all aglow, and
> now I know. The key to all heaven is mine. My heart has wings, and I can
> fly. I'll touch every star in the sky. So this is the miracle, that I've
> been dreaming of... So this is love."> ---CINDERELLA
>> Don't you understand? That everything I do, I do for you? Anything that
> might be special in me...is you.> ---GREAT EXPECTATIONS>>
One day, you look at the person and see more than you did the day before,
> like a switch was flickered somewhere. And the person who was just a
> friend is suddenly the only person you can imagine yourself with.> -Xfiles (series)
>> I feel like the best version of myself when i'm with you... and that makes
> me doubt everything else.> ---KEEPING THE FAITH
>> Is it possible to be just friends with someone i have these sort of
> non-moderate feelings for?... Or am I doomed forever to just be in love> and ultimately significantly hurt?> -Felicity
>> "There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop
> loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand
> that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some love that don't go
> away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky to end
> up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity. Somebody who
> never lets go. Somebody who cherishes you forever."> --- Ally Mc Beal
>>> 1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I
> am with you.
> 2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you> cry.
> 3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't
> mean they don't love you with all they have.
> 4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your
> heart.
> 5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them
> knowing you can't have them.
> 6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is
> falling in love with your smile.
> 7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the
> world.
> 8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their
> time on you.
> 9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right
> one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be
> grateful.
>10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
> 11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do
> is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time
> around.> 12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and
> know someone else and expect them to know you.
> 13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
> Moving Thoughts
> Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one
> so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be
> grateful for that gift.
> When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look
> so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened
> for us.
> The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with,
> never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best
> conversation you've ever had.
> It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's
> also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
> Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you
> back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart
> but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to
> get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love
> someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
> Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades
> away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to
> make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.
> There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want
> to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!
> Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to
>be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you
> want to do.
> May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you
> strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.
> Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it
> probably hurts the other person, too.
> The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they
> just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
> Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched,
> and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of
> people who have touched their lives. Love begins with a smile, grows with
> a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on
> a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your
> past failures and heartaches.
> When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
> Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and
> everyone around you is crying.

<< yOu nEver knEw >>

2005-05-11T08:28:00.000-07:00

yOu nEvEr kNew

I stand in front of the sunrise today, filled with awe at the beauty that lies before me. I wish I could have at least an idea of what falls beyond the horizon, just as much as I wish the sea will open up to me and eat me whole. Yet the sea seems to bear a somewhat unexplainable message I couldn’t decode. Something perhaps everybody knows about, something I should have known a long time ago just as much.

I stand here between the sun and the sea, both of which existed since time immemorial. I lay still, nursing my cup of coffee that turned cold, as cold as your heart has become and my pack of cigarettes, as stale as my love for you. The love you never knew existed.

The wind blew right into my face, sending shivers to my spine. It gently flew away my hair that covered the tears that I have unconsciously cried for you. I did not notice how strong the wind has become until I felt it leaving a dry saline line upon my face.

Suddenly, like a dream that has been haunting me in my sleep, I see a familiar event flash right in from of me. I could see myself alone in a room crying till there’s no more tears left to cry, holding on to my pillow that has become my faithful companion in the advent of my trying to put you to oblivion. It has never been easy for me to have always fallen asleep with pillows still soaked with tears as I wake up. Yet, you don’t have the faintest idea of these all, do you? You never knew.

So here I am, escaping from the bondage of you. I am a hundred miles away from the past that I am painstakingly trying to mend. This journey is for the part of me I wish to redeem, for no other reason but to put you all behind me. These will be the last tears I’ll cry for you. It won’t be easy, I know. But just as the sun that never fails to rise each waking moment of every day and the sea that forever links one landmass to the other, this decision wouldn’t fail me. You will now be just a past worth smiling about as I think of how much I will be capable of loving another, in time. I did love you, you know. To the point of surrender. But then again, you never knew.

You were then my entire universe. Its time you ought to know.

>>from: peyups.com<<

2005-05-09T09:07:00.000-07:00

Going Crazy

Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold

My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo

When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go

I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again

I would sacrificeCuz the feeling that I feel within

No other man would ever make me feel so right

Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night

But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me

I miss the way you hold me tight

I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch

I never thought that I could ever love a man so much

I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny

For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

Thats right baby I'm going crazy

I need to be your lady

I've been thinking lately

That you and me, yes we can make it

Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel

From the moment that I met you its been so damn real

My heart seems to skip another beat

Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak

Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me

And you love me I'm your lady

I'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you

I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?

It's true, no fronting

Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you

I'll just break down (down)